Last week Pastor Nuel asked us (Training for Victory students) to write a personal testimony on how we got saved and what happens after, so let me just share with you my testimony. Here it is..
“Writing a personal testimony is kind of challenging for me, not because of shame but because of the OC-ness in me that I want to write it sincerely and with excellence and on how God wants me to write it. I got saved when I was still young, it was June 25, 1995, and I was just 6 years old back then, mama was the one who shared the gospel with me. I remember my mama and papa praying for me and continuously telling me on how God loves me, that Christ died for me, and once I get saved I will immediately go to heaven and have a crown and palace there. As a child I was just so naïve about it and I just want to be saved for me not to go to hell, that’s it. I grew up as a goody goody girl, high-grades, home-school-home (routine), following papa’s (be home at 8pm) curfew until college, I was strong with my convictions and never really had a hard time on refusing to peer pressure, and having my father telling me “this is right” “that is wrong” “this is what you should and shouldn’t do” its either black or white, back then I thought that this is how to be a Christian, but that notion changed progressively as I move to Victory late 2008, God used my college friend for me to attend to Victory Ortigas and as I was attending small groups, meet new friends with the same faith and attended youth services I then started to feel that I want more of Jesus, I began starting my one-2-one on 2009, everything was really great and smooth sailing until my lolo died before I graduated from college on March 2009, a day before my graduation He died and that was my turning point, I experienced depression and started to walk away from God instead of running to Him, I started ignoring the bible, I don’t want to talk to anyone even to my parents, and I then having a relationship with an unbeliever, I let my emotions drag me to my lowest but God didn’t stop on loving me and reaching out for me; a friend from Victory encouraged me to be back on track, they never judged me for what I’ve done and continuously reminding and correcting me. I was finally baptized on October 24, 2010, but that doesn’t give me the problem free life but a problem-proof one and there were still so many ups and downs, wrong choices and decisions that led me to a heartbreak and just early this year that’s when I say that I have to really fix my eyes on Jesus no matter how much it costs me, I began to let go of the things that will hinder me from obeying and glorifying God, I lifted everything to God and just let go and be still before Him. I started again to volunteer and really strive to have a deeper relationship with God and to put God FIRST in every aspect of my life. I know that apart from God, I am nothing, that it is really only by His grace that I can do things, everyday I was just so blessed and always in awe on how faithful God has been and will always be in my life and in our family, even if my parents are both in Japan, and me being the parent/sister/friend/leader to my siblings all rolled into one, I’m honored and blessed because I know that God is preparing me for something. Every day, when I get to see how BIG and GREAT the God that I am serving and how much he loves me that he sacrifice his own son Jesus Christ for us and that Jesus conquered death for us to have that victorious and abundant life, I just want to share it with others too, I want them to experience this kind of love and mercy that God has continually giving me. How its gonna be easy when we are with God, that its not what they think it is to be a Christian, it is not boring to have a relationship with God, that its not about performing or our performance but its about how God loves us even when were still ugly in our sins and that He is the only One who can sustain us and love us unconditionally and can complete us. Now, that I am having a deeper knowledge and relationship with God I will now be more cautious on how I live my life and on my decisions, to always be rooted with His love and stand firm with my convictions and will ask God for more grace for me to speak boldly to other ladies and be a blessing to them.”